Bonded for Life

Some people need years to create a bond, ours only took 3 months and I know it will last a lifetime. 

He is the first volunteer who stayed with me the longest. Our relationship did not stay within the four walls of the Hospital, He became the younger brother I wish I had. I look out for him and I know I got his back. I know his secrets and he definitely knows what I'm all about. 

How did this happen? I really don't know. It was instantaneous. It goes beyond reasons. What I do know is that God gave me a brother from another mother because people couldn't take it if we share the same blood. 

So now when people ask me how many siblings I have, I just say 3 and one of them is living in Denmark. 

Dooped

In this life we meet people. They come and they go. Some of them are real and most of them are fake. 

They fake it real good that they had you going. Then there will be moments where in you will see things clearly. In a snap you wake up from the uncertainty. 

Yeah, they fooled you. You got dooped because you got things they wish they had. 

When you find it out. It's okay to cry. After that hold your head up high, blink away the tears and kiss them goodbye. 

8 Years of Great Work

I was lucky, i found the things I love at the age of 17. I was doing what I love doing at such a young age. I was holding school on my left and radio on my right. I love talking. I love learning things about people.  Even in school you can't see me being boxed in one clique. I hangout with the nerds, the hotties, the popular kids, the wallflowers and basically everyone. I always made it a point that I knew the things that made them tick. 

And on the radio I talk about those things and shared them to everyone. For a moment, I love what I was doing. I was on top of my game. I keep running that race on the frontline. No backing down. No looking back.

Then, I have to make a choice. I have to leave one of the things I love to prioritize one. Believe me, i was broken hearted. I was down. I was struggling to keep it. 

Growing up you could tell that I am the one your parents were afraid you'd turn out to be like.

Everyone comes with a baggage. Mine just happens to unpacked in a mess when you met me. I'm lucky coz i have people who helped me fold that mess and keep my life tidy. 

They said I'm a rebel without a cause. I'm just glad I got all the support I need from the people I love for all the right and wrong reasons.

I don't like it when people call me i'm a free spirit. To me it's a nicer way of saying that I am everywhere and that i am out of control. If I am out of control I wouldn't still be here. I could definitely handle myself and my alcohol. 

 Beyonce said that you just have to be happy. That also apply with work. You have to be happy with what you do so that you could do great work. 

When people tries to turn you into someone you are not, just let them but at the end of the day you have to stand at your own truth and that's what's important.

Thank you so much guys!

Im his Number 1 Fan

Pantaland 2015

Can we talk about how amazing this party was! It's good we need a re-up. Too good I'm too on it. I don't really dance on the streets but this one made me..Step by step til the sun is up. WE WON'T STOP!

The Thing is

sometimes its not good to be so nice:( u get no respect.

Under the Bantayan Sun

I don't care if I am forever alone. All I care about is when I am in Bantayan I should get some SUN

Saturdays in Malapascua

Happy Mother's Day

My Mother, She is the definition of a super Hero, she did everything that she could just for us to have best life possible. She give up her career to focus on us. We say thank you to people for opening doors for us. We say thank you to people for giving us things but thank you doesn't go a long way when it comes to my mom. If I could be half the person that she is I would be set for life. I don't really say tender things but when I say I love you I really mean it. I love you ma

I Have Issues

Now, everybody wanna know what my facebook posts were up to. I know it got you thinking about the things that I am up to. I was caught up into a chain of emotions I shouldn't be feeling. I have been wrong before and I never really learned anything. I wore my heart on my sleeves and trust people so easily. So I let them in my life and give people the chance. I only mean well to them. I have been holding my breath and hope that when people get close enough they wont leave. That when I show them the real me they wont pack their bags. That they wont unsubscribe to all my issues. 

Maybe I should have known that people would just walk out of your life without warning. I can't believe I stayed up all night thinking of reasons why. I just have to make myself understand. 

I've been fucked up by people so many times. Seems like I don't get jaded with what this vicious cycle had been to me. 

It gives me trust issues. I can't keep on acting like nothing is wrong with my life. Everything is wrong. I am so fucked up. I am so empty so broken inside.

Sometimes I just have to fake a smile coz it's the easiest thing to do. I wonder if everything about me could be fake so nothing will be broken again. 

I wonder if people fight with all the battles I fight in my mind. I wonder when they turn off the lights will their demons go out at night? Does it also scare them to go to bed thinking about how the next day will play out?

I have finally figure out how to build walls around my emotions. I had it so high that people can't look over. I got it side to sides and keep myself in where it is safe. 

I don't want to feel anything. I have go push this feelings in and pretend that they don't exist anymore.

I have to look at people with my head held up high and eyes closed. They don't have know that deep inside I'm such a mess. 

Fuck feelings I am here to party!!