Summer 102

An amazing summer adventure should be shared with friends and people you love.

Summer 101

To have an amazing summer you don't need to go far. An adventure could be just outside your doors. By that I mean it literally. 

Just grab your closest friends and put your stereo mad loud. With that right kind of mix, you are in for the time of your life.

Summer 2015

Let's jumpstart summer now.

Open Letter to my Friends

I don’t know where to start. I guess I have to start by saying I am sorry. I am really sorry.  I am sorry for the fact that it came to the point where in you have to meddle with what is happening to my personal life. I am sorry because I am so immature and I made decisions on impulse. Now, what was I thinking? I thought that leaving would make a big difference in my life, but it will only escalate all my problems. I am sorry for the things that I have done and for the things I have to do in order for me to be okay.

To be honest, for the last weeks I didn’t know where I stand. I didn’t understand myself. I was lost. Then I have realized that you have to be lost in order to find yourself again. You have to be broken so that you could create a better you.

This whole process, it helped me figure out the person that I was and the person that I am going to be. I thought I was strong but now I know I was wrong. I was hurt. I am still hurt but not in a way that the pain destroys me. It inspired me to be a better person and that’s the person that I am going to be. Slowly but surely. I will get there.

I know that I owe you a lot of explanations for my flaws but it doesn’t mean that I am justifying my mistakes. I have to make progress not excuses for my shortcomings. I am growing professionally and personally. I am learning from my mistakes.

This was the first time that it happened to me. It was hard but what was harder is losing myself in the process.

For a moment there, I have doubted myself. It made me feel less. That feeling made me want to leave. I have to get away from the hurt and the pain. I thought that staying would make me relive the horror each and everyday . I have to leave not because I am selfish but because it is necessary. I have to protect myself everyday.  As every mental picture replays every day in my mind, it made me feel numb and it made me used to the pain. It made me stronger than what I really am.

I have to stand up. I have to pick myself up. I don’t care how hard it is. I don’t care if I am going to be disappointed but I am not going to let this get the best of me.

There are people in my life that I made a priority. They even come before me. In return, they just walked away. You might not know this about me but if something happens to my friends I'd go out of my way just to make sure that they are okay. I don't know if this whole thing is just friendship or relationship but  when it ended it hurts like hell. You know what hurts more? It's when people walked out of your life and leave you there hanging. Seems like nobody had the decency to say goodbye nowadays.

I have learned the value of experience. Although I haven't seen things clearly. I am forever thankful for the things I never imagined I could be. If it wasn't for the liars, I wouldn't  know the qualities of a trustworthy person. If it wasn't for the pain, I wouldn't know the value of peace. If it wasn't for the good things falling apart, I wouldn't know what is needed to build the foundation of something great. I have learned the hard way the power of acceptance thru my disappointment. For every letdown has left me in a position to grow and I am wiser because of it all. I now had the courage to stay open and that has only made me better.

For all those things, I still want to thank you.

I promise to stay because now I know that it is where I belong. It is a part of me.

xo

It's About Time

Xyler Rain's First

It's amazing how a year could just fly by so fast. I hope that you turned out to be everything your parents wants you to be. Make us proud. I love you

My Shady Crew

Thank You

Well, I am on my feet now trying to get my life back together again. Though I don't know why but I still don't want to meet new people. For a moment there, you got me thinking that meeting you was destiny. How you made me love you more and more each day was epic. We used to be so turned up and now we are growing apart.

You give me the best 6 months of my life. I know it's over now but if I were to live my past again. I wan't it to be just the way it is. Because no matter what happened, you treated me like a QUEEN but in my world you are my RULER.

Taking that Leap of Faith

One of the hardest decision in life is LETTING GO. Whether it's anger, guilt, love, loss or betrayal. Change is never easy. We fight to hold on and we fight to let go. There is no reset button in life. You can't take anything back and you can't undo anything. All of your actions had consequence and the things you say and do today will have a lasting impact on the rest of your life. You have to understand that and you have to be aware of it while making decisions. Trust your intuition. You don't need to explain or justify your feelings to anyone. At times you have to defy logic. Your decisions don't have to make sense. Making a big life change is SCARY. but you know what's Scarier? REGRETS.

Taking that leap of FAITH!

Birthday and Baby Shower

Tomorrow we will be welcoming baby no.2, and I can't be there because I am scared. 

Happy Birthday Tan. Always remember that I will always be here for you and your growing family. 

My Crew

Sometimes they could be sneaky but I love em to death

Making Decisions

Today, I made a decision. Probably the hardest I ever made. It involves every aspect of my life. As a person. As a human being. 

The Backstory:

Well, if you don't know me. I don't let anybody get close as any normal person would. I always had these walls up. Even at work. I don't consider everyone as my friend. Yes we all get along just fine but again, my walls are always up. 

There was this someone, let's just call him Gee. That's the nickname I gave him. I always have special names for my friends that Im the only one calling them. (There's Garutay, lablab, baby girl, true love, first live, baby boy) yeah Im weird like that. He calls me supervisor.

He bacame one of the people I trust, not only with my life but with my parents' as well. We hang, we laugh and we whine about life together. He was really cool and all. When something went wrong, I always go out of my way just to make sure he is okay. 

Few months went by and we were okay. It was exactly a month ago when everything went crumbling down. He shut me out of his life. We stopped everything we used to do. He dropped me off like a hot potato and pushed me into the drain. HE WALKED OUT, I was LEFT OUT. 

He even sold me out on facebook. He posted about people from work were talking about him seeing someone. I tried reaching out to him but instead he posted to mind our own business and to go to the gym. It doesn't need rocket science to figure this one out. I know it was about me. 

Just kept my distance and stay silent because I don't want to hurt him for the things that I might say. 

Last Saturday, It was my last straw. I went berserk and walked out. 

This whole thing made me question myself. It gives me self doubt. It made me question  the fact that I can't make friends (in the real sense of the word). All I understand is, I have ISSUES. All this, I blame myself to. I felt like a nutcase. 

I know we said sorry to each other. I am really sorry for the things that I have put you through. I'M SO SORRY I AM DIFFICULT. 

I would like to go back to where we were but things changed and that's just the way it is. This time I think you were wrong. YOU ARE NOT LETTING GO. You are giving up but it's okay. because this time I know where I stand. I KNOW WHERE TO GO.

Less People, Less Bullshit

Valentine's Day

The day I really don't like

Bacause I got hurt by Mike

He used to be my sunshine

But deep inside he cant be mine

1,2,3,4,5

Counting the days I have to survive

6,7,8,9,10

Then came a long Ben

He showed me things I've been missing

Everytime me and him are kissing

He told me I will be okay

Each time I got a bouquet

But that didn't last long

because everything went wrong

He broke my heart

well that's just the start.

Everyday I have to be a clown
People don't have to see me frown
But every night
I hug my pillow tight.

I know one day
in someone's arms I lay.
I'm gonna be happy
and I don't have to be sappy.


 

Facebook Brawls

I knew he was gonna put it on facebook. Social Media nowadays had become an avenue for people to express their feelings and thoughts. But spilling your own tea on facebook is another story. I was wondering whatever happened to talkin shit out and whatever happened to our friendship. I was takin aback when a workmate of mine told me that one of my very close friend posted shit about me on FB. At first, I told myself not to care but then the other side of me is saying that I SHOULD. We are friends and friends talk when there's something wrong.

How did this thing turned out to be so evil. You go preaching about GOD and spreading hate a long the way. This doesn't make sense to me.

If you really didn't care, you wouldn't wanna share. You go tellin everybody just how you feel. I am posting this because I care. I care so much to wonder what is happening to you.

I hope one day you will realize that you are hurting people that really cares about you. But for now let's just stop!

To be Honest

This is how I feel right now. I don't know why but every time I am sick, I just feel like this.

National Mourning Day

Today, we mourn for the loss of 44 heroes who died in Maguindanao. I am deeply saddened by the news. My prayers and thoughts are with the families and loved ones of these brave men. 

Friends

I have crazy Friends

Self Expression

Self expression is very important. It allows us to channel our inner feelings to people we want to heard upon. There are those people who express themselves physically like crying or laughing.

I also know people who express themselves through painting or drawing.

Some people express  through Singing and dancing.

And I express myself through writing.


No matter the medium. I personally believe that we have the right to express ourselves. Sometimes we woke up and realize that the world in front of us is nothing but a masquerade. No matter how we flash some bright lights ahead of us we still can't see the signs.

It's very important to look at ourselves and stand on our feet and stand our ground. Be you. DO YOU!

Robo Formacion Photography: Adolf and Shayne Engagement

Love is like skydiving. You can't go anywhere but fall.

-SKINNY B
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Kalandrakas x House of Brokovich: Blog Giveaway

A few days more and it's gonna be the biggest festival in the Philippines. SINULOG. In celebration I am giving away 1 shirt to 2 lucky readers. All you have to do is follow the instructions below.

1. Like House of Brokovich  and Kalandrakas on Facebook.

2. Follow me on twitter and instagram.(if you don't have one, it's so easy to create)
3. Follow Robo Formacion on twitter and.instagram
4. Post this on Facebook or tweet on twitter:

"Win a #houseofbrokovich search on http://www.kalandrakas.com

5. Comment your Name, Email, Facebook, and Twitter.

WINNERS WILL BE ANNOUNCED TUESDAY Jan 13, 2015 8pm Philippine time!


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B Day 2015

The original plan was to go to an island and party all night but unfortunately, the weather did not cooperate. So I ended up on my bed the whole day. I was really surprised to know that my friend wanted go out with me. All along she was scheming of surprising me. Thank you so much.


Since it is my birthday, please allow me to say my piece. I would like to thank my family for always being supportive with everything I do. I would like to thank my very little friends for always hanging on. I know I am very difficult but you guys see me beyond the words that goes out of my mouth and the facebook statuses that I post. Having you guys around gives me more reason for living.

Thank you guys for the experience And I love you for all the right and wrong reasons.

Happy New Year Everyone

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