Open Letter to My 15 Year Old Self

Tuesday, January 03, 2017

Dear 15 year old self,

Today I am 30. I wanted to celebrate it by sending a letter to my 15 year old self, that's you. I think I have to start by telling you that it gets better in time. Every thing that you are going through wont matter anymore. 

I know that you are worried about fitting in in high school. How can you fit a square into a triangle? Don't worry. That's just temporary. The people that ignores you will eventually ask for your attention. Everyone you meet are just there temporarily. The people you call your friends are not really your friends. Know what you bring to the table. Don't be afraid about eating alone. 

Spend more time with Nonette and Blanche they are the people who is really there for you. The rest are just there because they need something from you. They are really good at faking it. They will manipulate you and eventually hurt you. Don't worry. Time will eventually expose their true self. Don't be scared to leave them. They are the reason why you have to build those walls higher than they are.

The person whom you thought was the love of your life will just disappoint you. You can't really turn a toad into a Prince Charming.

Because you are gay, people will always think that you are lesser than the person that you are. Don't let them shut you up. Don't let them destroy you. Run faster. It will only be over when you say it's over. Rule it. 

Everything is better when it's not planned. You are not supposed to figure out everything yet. Just wing it. You'll make it!

With so much Love,

30 year old you😜

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