150 Days Sober

 150 Days of Sobriety: A Journey from Grief to Healing

Today, July 16, marks a significant milestone in my journey—150 days of sobriety. That’s five months of taking back control, reclaiming my peace, and learning that alcohol was never the answer to my grief. It was just a temporary solution, one that only masked the pain for a little while before it came rushing back, stronger than before.

For so long, I believed that a drink could numb the ache inside me. I thought it would make the sadness, the anger, and the confusion go away. But every time I woke up, the emptiness was still there. The truth I was avoiding remained unchanged. Alcohol, for me, became a coping mechanism, but it wasn’t helping me heal. It was only prolonging the inevitable. The pain didn’t disappear; it just got buried under layers of numbness.

Now, as I celebrate this 150-day milestone, I realize that the journey towards healing isn't about running away from the pain—it's about facing it. It's about allowing myself to feel what I need to feel, without judgment or shame. Sobriety has taught me that healing doesn’t come from drowning in a bottle but from processing emotions, seeking support, and finding healthier ways to cope.

There have been tough moments, times when the urge to reach for a drink felt overwhelming. But with each passing day, I’ve learned to lean into my feelings instead of running from them. I’ve found solace in journaling, in deep conversations with close friends, and in moments of stillness. I've started to rediscover what it means to live fully, not through the haze of alcohol, but with a clear mind and an open heart.

This milestone isn't just about being sober for 150 days; it's about the growth, the self-discovery, and the healing that has taken place in those days. I've learned that grief is a process. It doesn’t just go away. But every day I choose to face it, I get a little stronger, a little more resilient.

To anyone out there struggling, I want to say this: It’s okay to grieve, it’s okay to feel lost, but it’s also okay to seek help and choose a path that leads you to healing. Alcohol isn’t the answer, but you are. You have the strength inside you to move through the pain, one day at a time.

Here’s to 150 days, and to the countless more of growth, healing, and peace ahead. Thank you for being part of this journey.