Some Random Thought from Last Sunday

I had a realization while I was at the beach last Sunday, and it honestly hit me hard. As I was just chilling by the water, I couldn’t help but think about what I want for my future self. Like, we all get older, right? But I really hope I don’t turn into that person whose ego is always begging for attention and validation. You know, the kind of person who needs constant reassurance from others to feel good about themselves? I don’t want that for me.

I hope I won’t become the person who makes others feel bad just to feel good about myself. I don’t want to tear anyone down to build myself up. It’s so easy to get caught up in that toxic cycle, but I want to be better than that. I want to grow into someone who doesn’t need to be constantly praised or told they’re doing great. Instead, I want to find peace within myself, to be secure and confident without relying on the opinions of others. It’s not about shutting out feedback, but rather about not letting my worth depend on someone else’s words or approval.

I guess, at the end of the day, it’s about self-love and self-assurance. I want to be that person who can just be, without needing the spotlight or constant strokes to feel validated. Here’s to embracing who we are, flaws and all, and learning to stand tall even when no one else is around to clap.

#SelfGrowth #Reflection #BeYourself

Hey! This is For You

Yo, if you're reading this and you give a damn, this one's for you.

Real talk: one day when I’m old and my legs are movin’ slower than dial-up internet, I want you to roll with me to the beach. I’m talkin’ about kickin’ it on the sand, just chillin’ and starin’ out into that endless, wild nothingness like it’s our own personal universe. I wanna soak up that sun until I’m crispy, with no worries, just letting the good vibes wash over me.

And hey, you know we gotta have that soundtrack on deck. I need those 2000s R&B jams bumpin’ in the background. Tracks that hit different and take you back to all those wild nights, heartbreaks, and unforgettable moments. Let that smooth music remind us how life can be both a banger and a slow jam, all rolled into one epic journey.

When it’s time for me to peace out from this crazy ride, I want to look back and know I lived it up—laughin’, lovin’, dancin’, and takin’ every chance life threw my way. I wanna be that old soul at the beach, smilin’ like I’ve seen it all, feelin’ grateful for every high and every low that made me who I am.

So here’s the deal: let’s not just coast through life. Let’s make every moment count, create memories that are as dope as those 2000s tracks, and always remember where we came from. Live loud, love hard, and never settle for less. When my time comes, I hope I leave behind a legacy of wild adventures and real connections.

Stay real, stay true, and keep the vibes alive—this life’s worth every minute if you live it like it’s the last track on your favorite playlist.

38: This is My Era of Reciprocity

This chapter of my life is called Reciprocity—and it’s a game-changer. For so long, I’ve been pouring into others without asking much in return. But now, I’m flipping the script. I’ve learned that you can’t keep giving when the energy isn’t mutual. It’s exhausting, unfulfilling, and unfair to yourself.

So here’s the new rule: I’ll give you the same energy you give me. You bring kindness, you’ll get kindness in return. You offer love and support, I’ll meet you with the same. But if all you bring is indifference, negativity, or distance, that’s what you’ll get back. It’s not about being petty—it’s about balance and self-respect.

Reciprocity is freedom. It’s letting go of one-sided relationships and stepping into a space where mutual effort, respect, and love are the standard. This isn’t about revenge or proving a point; it’s about protecting my peace and creating meaningful, balanced connections.

At 38, I’ve learned that not everyone is meant to walk this journey with me forever. And to the bridges I’ll inevitably burn along the way—good luck. 🔥 Not all connections are meant to last, and that’s okay. I’ll keep moving forward, lighter and freer, with no hard feelings.

Here’s to this era of alignment, healthy boundaries, and only giving what I get in return. Let’s see how this goes.

#ReciprocityEra #38YearsYoung #SelfLoveJourney #HealthyBoundaries #ProtectYourPeace #MutualEnergyOnly #GrowthMindset

Breaking the Cycle

 Ahem. There was this girl I know. She was cute, alright, but she had one fatal flaw—she liked one of my closest friends, and he never saw her worth.

She did everything to get his attention. She hung out with the boys, chilled at a common friend’s house, even made up stories just to keep him around. But the harder she tried, the further he pulled away. I thought it was pathetic, cheap, and degrading.

Until today.

Over dinner, I told my sister about this girl. About all the things she did. And my sister? She dropped a truth bomb I wasn’t ready for.

"You have no right to laugh at her," she said. "Considering all the things you did with that guy."

And just like that, it hit me.

I was that girl—or maybe even worse. I’ve been caught in this vicious cycle: meet a guy, fall hard, fall harder, get crazy, things fall apart, melt down, move on. Rinse. Repeat.

My sister asked me when it will stop. Truth is, I don’t know the answer.

But here's what I’m starting to realize: it’s not about the guy, the chase, or even the heartbreak. It’s about me. My choices, my patterns, my why. Why do I keep running after people who don’t stay? Why do I give so much of myself to someone who doesn’t give the same back?

It’s a hard truth to swallow, but sometimes, the love we desperately try to find in others is the love we’re not giving ourselves.

So, to the girl I laughed at—you taught me something. You weren’t pathetic. You were just looking for love in the wrong place.

And to myself—maybe it’s time to break the cycle. To pause, reflect, and remember that love isn’t about losing yourself to find someone else.

It’s about finding you.

Diabetes Type 2

 As many of you know, I’ve always been open about my life here, and that includes my journey with Type 2 Diabetes. 🌱 Last week was one of the toughest I've faced—it was a wake-up call. I felt absolutely terrible, and it hit me hard that I never want to feel that way again. 🙏

I’ll be honest—it’s been a constant battle to stick to a proper diet and maintain control. Life gets hectic, cravings creep in, and sometimes I lose track. But this past week taught me how crucial it is to take care of myself. 💔

If you’re also living with diabetes or know someone who is, I’d love to hear your advice:
💡 How do you stay consistent with your diet?
💡 Any go-to snacks or meals that help with sugar control?
💡 Tips for staying active or managing stress?

Sharing is caring, and together, we can lift each other up. 🌟 Drop your tips and ideas in the comments—I’m so ready to bounce back and make better choices moving forward. 💪

Here’s to healthier days ahead! 🩷 #DiabetesJourney #Type2Diabetes #SelfCare #HealthyLiving