Sunday, January 30, 2011

Have you ever been to a point when you have to question someone's friendship? Well I have.

I just can't pretend to be okay when I am NOT!!! I don't want to hover on things that are not important. Don't want to spend my time wasted on people that are not real. I am mad. I am Angry. YES! I just had to let this all out.

Something went so wrong at work today. I just had to question someone's stand on this friendship. I know I'm sounding like I'm in a competition with his girl. But sorry to disappoint you, I know I'll loose that game. and this is totally another story.

I had asked some of my friends to scrub in the operating room today for we lack manpower in the hospital. And as if they were just staring at a blank page and as if they didn't hear me.. They still went creepin with some losers. I know It's none of my business but I asked them as a friend.. And that's whats eating me... It's not easy...

So i continued with my duties and dodge another bullet. I just couldnt take it. I was struggling all through out the entire procedure. I wish I could divide myself to be in two places at the same time. I did my best but I guess it wasn't enough. I just had to endure hurtful words that wasn't even supposed to be said. GRRRR

My mom told me that I rely on people too much that it would feel like the end of the world without them. I told her that were a team and who am I gonna rely on.. Sa ANIMALS??? Mom was right...

She also told me to be very strong to have an Iron heart.. coz in my line of work.. words will be said when people are stressed out.. I tried mom but maybe na lowbat today coz I was feeling like a total shipwrecked. I let down my guard and dropped my defenses. Im such a loser!! brrrr

Ok here's the MORAL of the Story.....
1. I've realized that Passion will run out once its filled with lust.
2. To never rely on someone too much.. I have my own two feet to stand on...

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