People Change!

How did I get to this point where I can't trust nobody? I don't really know.

Is it because I trust people so much that I rely to them in every little thing that I do. I was just making all things work but I guess it wasn't just enough.. I can't stop them from doing things that they love to do. I can't just hold on to them forever.


From this time on, I had to change. I had to rely on myself and live it out loud..

I have to be on my own!

Lovin It

Usually I had my post whining about some random stuffs of my day to day life but this time its gonna be different. I'm creating a post about how good life is for me. Things may go a lil crazy, ok maybe not a lil crazy, but that's life.

Things have fallen on there right place, finally. Tryin to keep my cool now and I'm so happy with work and everything around me.

They tried their best to put me down but hey I'm still alive and doin alright. Nothin can bring me down.

Getting Over Is Hard to Get Over

I'm getting really paranoid about this thing. It's like you can never get any sleep at all even though you really want to but your thoughts just keeps you up. Worrying about the wrong stuffs and all crap. Made myself go from being just unhappy to being unhappier with the way my life is going through right now. Thinking about the "should haves" and the "would haves". I've been down this road 2 million times already and can't believe I'm heading that way again. Clinging unto what's left inside, but there's nothin in. It's hard when you preach about how other people should live their lives and yet I can't even get a grip with mine. It's funny when professionally I can help a person live but I'm struggling to be alive. Come on. How cruel life can be?


I know it's bananas when I would say that I had a relapse. I'm already broken but my mind keeps pounding my heart in little bits of pieces til it becomes dust. Why can't we be satisfied with what is laid on our plate? Why do we to reach over someone's platter and take a piece? Crack me up and look inside but I don't have the answers.

Would it be too much to ask if you want your old self back after you are scraped out of your juice?


These thought keeps me alive:

I'm not alone, I'm Just Single. I still got my Friends on my Back.

Young By Thoughts!!!!

Seriously, I really think that I'm just 13 instead of being 20-something. Maybe because of the people I hangout with. Like they are really young and it's really amazing how mature they handle things better than how I run things. They already know that life isn't always roses and chocolates.

How they became a soldier of life and stand up for me when Im so down. I always know that I had their back and it wont matter where I am coz they'll be there. I know that they will dodge life's bullets and put it on a ceasefire. Now aint that sweet??

This is Kevin Sam..17



Daryl 19


Chad 17


EMAY19, CHAD and REANNE17


MARIZ 17


Roan 20 and Reina19

With GOD in front, You guys on my SIDE and our Parents on our Back.. What Else can go wrong!
You guys will always be my friend, my hommies, my brothers and sisters...

It Ends Tonight

I don't know what to do right now.... I'm currently sorting things out. There's so many things I wanna know the answers to.

The chances I took for him had me on my knees, but you'll never see me beg. Go and die alone, I'm not coming with you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



I knew this is coming, I just never thought that it would be this soon.

IT was too much to handle... Thank GOD I had this blog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Now I realized that......



I'm not Cinderalla and he ain't PRINCE CHARMING, And This is not My Happy ENDING

Boomerang!

Earlier this week, I tried my luck on being a love expert but clearly I didn't make any sense. My friend didn't follow my advise. I was shocked when I've seen them together with her gold digging "boyfriend". I can't believe that she took another dive in the pool even though she knew that the water is shallow. The worst part was she is now ignoring me. Me and my big mouth right? I felt so left out and alone.


But even though she no longer want's to be my friend, I have no regrets for everything that I told her. I prefer to tell the truth and hurt someone than to tell a lie and make them smile.

So there's no need for a word-war coz that will make everything so cheap!!!!!!!!!!!

I made it

This is one of those post that you might find corny and unnecessary. Feel free to close this window, I won't mind.


Today I just received the ticket to a better tomorrow. I'm now a Registered Nurse. It's a bittersweet victory I must say. Knowing that some of my friends never made it. I couldn't just rejoice at the top of my lungs.

This is for the people who have helped me along the way.

To My Parents for their undying love and Support.
To our Dean and to the Faculty, You Taught us Well..
To Miss Daryl T. Aramil, Mr. Giovanni Verano, Miss Hanna B. Pilario and Miss Abegail Uy, Teching me what I refused to learn.
To Reinaflor "anday" Jusay for visiting me while I was on rehab.
To Ernest Roan "lil xylem" Dalag, for the late night txts when I can't sleep because of anxiety.
To Keisha Najarro, Roldan Conde, Wynonna Salazar for pushing me up when I was so down.
To My Rehab Roommates, Pinky, Gergen, Lorelyn, Cyril "maretes", and Jane "dayang", Rehab wont be the same without you. Those were memories that lasts a lifetime.
To the People who believed in me, Thank you.
To the People who never believed in me, Hey Look where I am Now.

Thanks!


CONGRATS! To all the CIT PASSERS

Pre Valentine Dramz

There was this guy from my hometown that I really love. I swear.. Way back in my elementary days to my High School years. I know that it’s not right, it’s not even normal, I think. So I suppressed it. I left the town right before My Senior Year in High School just to close the doors of the past. I still come back every once in a while for a day or two, so that there would be no chance of seeing him. And it has been Six years since then.

I thought I was over him, so I decided to go back and stayed longer than I used to. It’s been 3 weeks and we've been seeing each other, hangout, eat out together. I know that I was over him. Well I thought I knew. We've talked about things and catch up on each other. Everything went well.

Till one night when we went out together. He told me that his heart was breaking. He told me everything about this girl that I really know and how she broke his heart. He cried in front of me and sob til dawn. I've never seen a guy break out like that. He said that he still needs me when he stumble and fall like what we used to. I think that it's just okay coz we're friends. She is one lucky B*tch.

What surprised me more was my heart. I don't know what to call that feeling but it hurts. I don't want to see him cry or hurt. Even though I think that his problem is not worth my time but I just can't leave him behind like that.

Right now I'm lost. I don't know where to put myself.


I'm really confused.



Am I rekindling the old flame that I’ve tried to put off or It's just a friendly PITY that I'm Feeling.


Please Help Me..