Christmas Must Go On

Despite the tragic incidents that happened, we always find a way to celebrate.

Get well soon Baby REANE CAESAR JUSAY

Glad to make you smile...

Meeting Everybody Halfway

One for the Paper, two for the money, three for my honey.

LL: Lorre Lately

Lately I've lost every single memory of happiness in my mind. I was so dejected with what's happening with my life.  I blamed this to AGE and CHOLESTEROL. I am always easily irritated and had violent tendencies towards myself. This really scared me. I wasn't like this before.


So I went out of my usual day to day routine and hang out with my friends... But to no avail they couldn't make it. That made me furious even more. I scoured the town for some people to hang out with. And I found my friend's prodigee.


People Meet The BAGETS

Hangin out with them made me see a new perspective in life. They made me realize that age is just numbers we attach to ourself it doesn't mean anything except the number of years we live on earth. We only get old when we stop believing in ourselves and when we stop the thirst for new things to do. With them my heart starts to pound (and I'm not in love this time) because it is filled with excitement. They never run out of things to do.


Some say that I only hang out with them coz I ran out of people to spend time with and that they are my only option. JUST SO YOU KNOW, they are the best option I ever had.

Passion

Have you ever been to a point when you have to question someone's friendship? Well I have.

I just can't pretend to be okay when I am NOT!!! I don't want to hover on things that are not important. Don't want to spend my time wasted on people that are not real. I am mad. I am Angry. YES! I just had to let this all out.

Something went so wrong at work today. I just had to question someone's stand on this friendship. I know I'm sounding like I'm in a competition with his girl. But sorry to disappoint you, I know I'll loose that game. and this is totally another story.

I had asked some of my friends to scrub in the operating room today for we lack manpower in the hospital. And as if they were just staring at a blank page and as if they didn't hear me.. They still went creepin with some losers. I know It's none of my business but I asked them as a friend.. And that's whats eating me... It's not easy...

So i continued with my duties and dodge another bullet. I just couldnt take it. I was struggling all through out the entire procedure. I wish I could divide myself to be in two places at the same time. I did my best but I guess it wasn't enough. I just had to endure hurtful words that wasn't even supposed to be said. GRRRR

My mom told me that I rely on people too much that it would feel like the end of the world without them. I told her that were a team and who am I gonna rely on.. Sa ANIMALS??? Mom was right...

She also told me to be very strong to have an Iron heart.. coz in my line of work.. words will be said when people are stressed out.. I tried mom but maybe na lowbat today coz I was feeling like a total shipwrecked. I let down my guard and dropped my defenses. Im such a loser!! brrrr

Ok here's the MORAL of the Story.....
1. I've realized that Passion will run out once its filled with lust.
2. To never rely on someone too much.. I have my own two feet to stand on...

Post Birthday Bash with the Sindikatos

We celebrated her birthday today. and we had so much fun. It may not be a fancy celebration but it was worth a thousand postcards.

Gloria Diaz should be BANNED here in CEBU

It s all over the news that Gloria DIAZ said that Cebuanos cant hardly speak english. WE CAN!!! I think she haven't seen a real Cebuano for her to make such a retarded comment. I know she didn't mean any harm but still it hurts... A real Cebuano is a globally competitive citizen because we can communicate in english and tagalog... but she cant speak bisaya from what ive heard..

KUTYAIN NA LAHAT WAG LANG KAMING MGA BISDAK...Coz we fight back...rawr

Thoughts on the Tourist Bus HOSTAGE Tragedy

Because of 1 mans mistake doesnt speak for its entirety and its not enough to condemn an entire nation. i understand their grief but banning filipinos in their country is too much.. i thought HK people are reasonable and not racist...

PLEASE OPEN YOUR EYES AND LOOK INTO YOUR HEARTS A SPACE FOR FORGIVENESS

Life Cycle

Its been 2 years since I started this crappy blog...Amidst the drama, the laughter, the tears and the triumphs (not the bra) are the lessons that I didn't learn in class. Lessons that will take me farther in this life.


I have learned that Life is a mean cycle that you can't escape. The cycle repeats itself. From falling in love to broken hearts to falling in love all over again. From making mistakes, learning from them to making new mistakes.


I have also learned to value friendship, coz when life fucks us all and when all walls are burned down that's the sole thing that keeps you going.( that's what keep me going)


This is it For now... Happy 2 years to Me and This BLOG

People Change!

How did I get to this point where I can't trust nobody? I don't really know.

Is it because I trust people so much that I rely to them in every little thing that I do. I was just making all things work but I guess it wasn't just enough.. I can't stop them from doing things that they love to do. I can't just hold on to them forever.


From this time on, I had to change. I had to rely on myself and live it out loud..

I have to be on my own!

This ain't Sayunara Yet

I kept on thinkin that nothin will change and things will always stay the way they are. You will always have to travel 100 kilometers for us to chill, unwind and have a good time. But then again like every human being, we had to move on and there's no stoppin it. You're on a different track and about to start a new chapter in your life, I just hope that you'll never ever forget me but if you dare, Imma hunt you down. Girl I'm just a text away. Pili lang sa sun or sa globe.
And No matter where life will take us.. I know that I always have you with me..

Metamorphosis

Lately, I've been thinking a whole lot of things...things that will make me happy coz right now, I aint. I'm not frownin but I just felt so empty. Well I thought that I know myself very well but I haven't met this side of me. This is not about salary from work but this is about reality. Am I always gonna be a volunteer? Come on!


I just think that I had to move on. Get a real job and save some money for my future. Like a butterfly I had to come out of my cocoon and spread my wings little by little til I can fly.

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I don't know what's going on with me right now. I'm confused with everything I do. I know that I had to quit soon coz no matter how hard I try to fight it will all be a waste. This song gives new meaning to my life....




Thank You Adele... Keep Inspiring other people like the way you Inspired me...


WHOA!!!! I just got a lot of response from this post from my close friends. They're askin me what I'm going through right now. Im not yet ready to tell it all but don't worry guys I'll come around and tell y'all.

Soldiers 4 Life

We Fight and We fall but It doesn't matter coz I know we'll stand up and Fight right back!

Yet Another Heart Break!

Yeah yeah yeah! I know what you're thinking right now. Again right? Yes, I'm broken and for some lame reason. I can't help myself, it's like a mean cycle I just can't quit. I know that this will happen sooner or later.



I can't help but fall for him. He is the man of my dreams. Yes I had dreams too, and it's pathetic. Thinkin that he might love me back which I definitely know even with the slimmest chance, wont be true. I'm hypnotized. It's getting out of control.



My friends told me that I should stop and its as if I don't learn. Yes, I've learned from my mistakes it's just that you guys were given the world (you're straight and I'm not) and I had to take everythin by chance. I needed this to show me who I'll be in the end. I know I'm strong and this thing right here (points to the heart) wont take long to heal. And just because You guys can't see me cry or bleed it doesn't mean that this heartache isn't deep. But don't worry coz I'll get over this, just like before.

I know that I'll always be blessed coz I had you guys on my back, constantly loving and pushing me. Wish I could put this thing behind me easily so that I could be up and about just like what I used to.

Wasted Time? not This Time..

I thought I've straightened up my acts but I still had my moments when I cracked up and get wasted. I'm not a role model and I never wished to be one. I just wanna have fun til I crush and burn. People said that I should be afraid of losing everything, including my name coz of what I'm doing. Well I shouldn't be coz for me character is more important than reputation. People said that I'll never made it but just look how far I've come.

So hell Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!! The Party Continues

me and my baby

Almost Never Made It

Have you had a time in your life where in you loose all your wits that you just wanted to quit and give up everything?. I have! Last night, I had my breaking point. I wanted to leave everything behind and lead an easy life. I don't know what hit me but I really wanted to give up. So txted my majesty (mother) and told her about my thoughts. She replied "I've always known that you are a whiner, you rant about nothin and made fuss about little things, but i never took you for a quitter." Of course she never said it in english. I just translated it.

And that hit me like a huge rock on my forehead!. I kept pushing on and made it through that most gruesome night of my life EVER!!!

Lovin It

Usually I had my post whining about some random stuffs of my day to day life but this time its gonna be different. I'm creating a post about how good life is for me. Things may go a lil crazy, ok maybe not a lil crazy, but that's life.

Things have fallen on there right place, finally. Tryin to keep my cool now and I'm so happy with work and everything around me.

They tried their best to put me down but hey I'm still alive and doin alright. Nothin can bring me down.

Thoughts About Life

I might be young and immature but there are things that I already learned about life. So what you think about that?

1. Regrets are a waste of Time! It may never turn out the way you want it to be but for one moment it is what you wanted.

2. Not everything is meant to be but everything is worth a try.

3. Character is important than what people think of you. People will think that you are less of what you truly are.

4. Never let anything get the best of you. Never let anything put you down and if you do stumble down, stand up.

5. There are only 3 important things in life that you really need. Faith, Family and Friends and fortune is never a part of it.

Getting Over Is Hard to Get Over

I'm getting really paranoid about this thing. It's like you can never get any sleep at all even though you really want to but your thoughts just keeps you up. Worrying about the wrong stuffs and all crap. Made myself go from being just unhappy to being unhappier with the way my life is going through right now. Thinking about the "should haves" and the "would haves". I've been down this road 2 million times already and can't believe I'm heading that way again. Clinging unto what's left inside, but there's nothin in. It's hard when you preach about how other people should live their lives and yet I can't even get a grip with mine. It's funny when professionally I can help a person live but I'm struggling to be alive. Come on. How cruel life can be?


I know it's bananas when I would say that I had a relapse. I'm already broken but my mind keeps pounding my heart in little bits of pieces til it becomes dust. Why can't we be satisfied with what is laid on our plate? Why do we to reach over someone's platter and take a piece? Crack me up and look inside but I don't have the answers.

Would it be too much to ask if you want your old self back after you are scraped out of your juice?


These thought keeps me alive:

I'm not alone, I'm Just Single. I still got my Friends on my Back.