Getting Over Is Hard to Get Over

I'm getting really paranoid about this thing. It's like you can never get any sleep at all even though you really want to but your thoughts just keeps you up. Worrying about the wrong stuffs and all crap. Made myself go from being just unhappy to being unhappier with the way my life is going through right now. Thinking about the "should haves" and the "would haves". I've been down this road 2 million times already and can't believe I'm heading that way again. Clinging unto what's left inside, but there's nothin in. It's hard when you preach about how other people should live their lives and yet I can't even get a grip with mine. It's funny when professionally I can help a person live but I'm struggling to be alive. Come on. How cruel life can be?


I know it's bananas when I would say that I had a relapse. I'm already broken but my mind keeps pounding my heart in little bits of pieces til it becomes dust. Why can't we be satisfied with what is laid on our plate? Why do we to reach over someone's platter and take a piece? Crack me up and look inside but I don't have the answers.

Would it be too much to ask if you want your old self back after you are scraped out of your juice?


These thought keeps me alive:

I'm not alone, I'm Just Single. I still got my Friends on my Back.

How Gays are Made

They say that good girls are made of sugar, spice and everything nice (powerpuff girls) but gays are made of glitter and alcohol with eyeliners on the side and something fun.


Seriously, gays are born and not made. Some people may that some guy made him gay what they don't is that they are born that way. They just don't realize it and needs a slight push for them to fully realize their potentials as GAYS.

Joe Jonas Does Single Ladies

This is really creepy..

Things Change!

It's amazing that in just a matter of days, how things can change so fast. It's out of control. In a blink of an eye, all the things that I ever wanted went out of my reach. As I look back, I couldn't imagine that things would end up this way. In the process Im loosing myself.

Things had to change..... certainly...




Seriously... I had to, for my friends, family and for myself....

Chasing Gaga

The Lady that I love is at IT again.. She Just Released the music video for my Favorite song which is PAPARAZZI. Ahhhhh and its crazy. Shes like a burning flame you can't just put off..











click here to view the video

Bogo Fiesta 2009 Bonanza

As far as I could remember, this is the most boring Fiesta Ever, in the history of Fiestas in the world. All activities never surpassed my unrealistic standards or maybe because the organizers were just contented with their mediocrity and that's annoying. Hahahaha...


But gays like me, wouldn't let you guys down. We made sure that we had fun y'all. With a lil taste of glitter, a mix of rock n roll, a splash of shimmer are the ingredients needed to create a beautiful memory.



Snapshots from the ShutterBUG

Me, Nonette "Adam Lambert", Ulmar "yads", and Lee



Hey!!!



Wait, did you just fart?? kidding...



Another Kingkong Barbie Moment....

During that night, I drunk a lot, walk a lot but I made new friends. Thank you guys.

Just Because

Just because I'm gay, It doesn't mean that I don't have feelings. well I get hurt too.
Just because I'm gay, It doesn't mean that I'm promiscuous.
Just because you said "no offense", it doesn't mean you can say anything nasty. Hello all douche does that all the time.
Just because I'm beautiful it doesn't mean that I'm perfect. I had flaws too.
Just because I made this post it doesn't mean that it had any sense.. this is just like one of those entries that will make you roll your eyes and say.. boring

Twitterized

Lately, I've joined the latest online craze, TWITTER. I'm so hooked with it. It's like an Addiction I just can't quit.

Facebook is so yesterday!

Seriously, come and join me on my twitter account.

click here

King Kong Barbie

Im getting fatter and darker which made me look like Sh*t.

Friends Don't Eff

I really shouldn't be making this post but I just have to. A lot of people had this crazy stereotype that gays can't have guys that are straight as friends. They always had this thought in their punitive mind that once a gay guy hangs out with his straight friends they always end up in bed. Have a crazy one night stand. This could be true for some people but that is so not me!

I don't have this habit of playin around with my friends, whatever, we had fun but not that way. I am not raised this way. Foolishness and sick F*ckery is so not my thing. I respect myself that's why "MY REAL FRIENDS RESPECT ME".

If you had this idea, well maybe you should "X" me out of it. You'll be disappointed.

And For what its worth....

I DONT F*CK my Friends and REAL FRIENDS DON'T F*CK!

So drop it.

P.S. Im not posting this to single out or to attack someone. but I just want you guys to stop it coz its not funny.

Young By Thoughts!!!!

Seriously, I really think that I'm just 13 instead of being 20-something. Maybe because of the people I hangout with. Like they are really young and it's really amazing how mature they handle things better than how I run things. They already know that life isn't always roses and chocolates.

How they became a soldier of life and stand up for me when Im so down. I always know that I had their back and it wont matter where I am coz they'll be there. I know that they will dodge life's bullets and put it on a ceasefire. Now aint that sweet??

This is Kevin Sam..17



Daryl 19


Chad 17


EMAY19, CHAD and REANNE17


MARIZ 17


Roan 20 and Reina19

With GOD in front, You guys on my SIDE and our Parents on our Back.. What Else can go wrong!
You guys will always be my friend, my hommies, my brothers and sisters...

HAppy Fiesta Sa Amo

It was April 25 , 2009 when the click hits 9 everybody had fallen in line for that one big happy party. Everybody was crunk and rowdy but its ok... ahhh My rhyming skills sucks...


Well anyways here are some pics with my fat ass.

Thought I was in Disco Heaven but this looks like a Disco Inferno!

Discoral Ni!!!!!!

I love you soo much bebs!!!!!! hahahah


Pa.Lo.od2 ni xa pero nahan ni xa sa personal.. this is emay btw.


With Kevin Sam


Latika and Kevin Sam


The Animal In the Party!!!!!


Wall Flowers

Thank you!!!!!!!

Getting to Know Myself All Over Again

I thought I already knew myself..but I was wrong. Times tested me to my limits and had me on my knees and beg for mercy. I thought that I'm not capable of loving someone. Though it's so yesterday but that experience made me what I am today. A better, different, brand new, bitchier if that's a word and tougher than Yesterday.


I realized that change is constant and we can't be that same person that we were yesterday. We had to move forward and we should work for it. Work to make ourselves better so that we can be at our best..And certainly I will put a whole new meaning to the words bitch and backstabbing.. I'll make sure of that...

Thanks for keeping up with me when I was so crunky and Irrate.. I appreciate that.. Please stay!...

Random Thoughts

What does the newest text message in your inbox say?

► "Suncellular chenis.. bout the load thing"

.

What was the last song you sang out loud?

► PAPARAZZI-Lady Gaga!

.

What time did you go to bed last night?

►about 4am

.

When was the last time you cried?

► Last night.. cried myself to sleep.

.

Who gives you the best advice?

► C Meg

.

What was the last thing to make you laugh?

►DOTA....

.

What annoys you most in a person?

► Pretenders... I hate them a lot

.

Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?

► Yes.. tired of being poor...can I unpoor myself???

.

Who was the last person you saw in person?

►Mga kaduwa og dota

.

Have you changed this year?

► Yea.. a lot...

.

What are you listening to right now?

► Vanity-Lady Gaga

.

Are you talking to anyone while doing this?

► Yeah.. Ron2

.

Msg for someone...

► Please don't come near me...

.

Have you ever played an instrument?

► yeah.. drums.. and i sucked

.

What's the worst idea you've had this week?

►like a lot.. what i had in my brain might surprise you....

.

What were you doing at 4 am?

► sleepin

.

Are you a blonde?

► nope.. brunnette

.

Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew?

► Yeah.. Sa bus...

.

Do you think you can love someone without trusting them?

► no

.

What is something that you're looking forward to?

► Nothin...its hard... made my heart bleed everytime...

.

Have you eaten popcorn in the last 48 hours?

► nope...

.

Is there someone who likes you?

►Nope.. and i think noone will

.

Are you wearing socks?

► not right now....

.

Who's thinking about you right now?

► Just killing time with this crap

.

What are you thinking about?

►Him

.

Is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?

►It is

.

Without naming any names, say something to somebody:

► I love you GOODBYE

.

How did you and the second in your featured friends become friends?

► C kevin sam?? Childhood friends.. but im a lot older than him.. Neighbors...

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Are you happy with the way things are going?

►Not really...

.

Would you ever get a tattoo?

►Thinking about getting a bar code tat on my nape

.

Honestly, do you hate the last girl you were talking to in person?

► Nope.. i love my majesty

.

Where is the person you miss the most right now?

► Idk..

.

In the last 24 hours have you done anything you regret?

►Yeah.. and dont want to think about it ever...

.

Do you hate anyone?

►yeah.. i am not really not like this...

.

Can you watch scary movies?

► ye

.

Has anyone ever spelled your name wrong?

► always... its double R people

.

Would you rather have roommates or live alone?

► roomates

.

Did you cry at all today?

► nop

.

Have you ever cut your own hair?

► yep...

.

Have you ever told someone that you loved him?

► Nope.. and no plans...

.

Is your best friend single?

► yes like recently lng gyud hahaha

.

What do you want for your next birthday?

► A bf...

I heart Nanay Dionesia

What? I envied her coz she is now sleeping on the lap of luxury with a lifestyle of the rich and famous...


Hey D, If your planning to pull out an Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt Stunt, Just wanna let you know that Im up for adoption...

Gone Gaga

Have you gone gaga over Lady Gaga? Well I have.. She got me dancing with her JUST DANCE ANTHEM and try to read her POKER FACE.
But I think PAPARAZZI is her best song.


Just click here to go to her site

Happy Mothers Day Majesty

To the one woman that you'll always have. The only girl in your life that will stand by you through everything. As long as you're with her, you know that everything will be alright.
The only one who will dodge all the bullets just for you to live.

Tomorrow, we will celebrate that special day for her.
Whatever you call her, mama, inay, mommy, mother, make her feel special and that she is appreciated.



To my MAJESTY. Happy MOTHER'S DAY.. I will always love you!

I Should Move on

These past few days I was so lost and was living in an alternate reality. I admit I've fallen In love with the Idea that I was in love. Got crazy and gone gaga over a guy who is seemingly truthful and gentle and almost unreal. At first, I thought that I was dreaming. I am dreaming wide awake. Misunderstanding everything that he does. Thinking everything was for me and putting colors to almost everything. (i am crazy i admit)

A man is for a woman and a woman is for a man.

I was taken aback by this idea. This made me realize that I had to go back to reality and I couldn't take him with me. I still love him but I get myself away from him just to save that little amount of sanity left inside my head. This is very far and out from the person that I was then. Letting go is never easy for me and to start all over again is the only option I have.

I wanna be wild and carefree like I used to.

The Sweetest Song Ever

The sweetest song I've ever heard... Superman by Brown Boy...

Loving Secretly

This is really annoying but hey this is the state I am currently on. This is like suicide, waiting for someone to love you back. Craving for his attention and time. Allowing him to swoop you off your feet by just doing nothing.

Pathetic, maybe but you can't just teach your heart to stop beating for that person. My heart had a mind on its on. You can't just control it to like someone else.


I don't even understand myself why I took this road. All I know is when he's near I feel butterflies on my stomach and I see the birds and the bees.

This topic closes this way..

Nathadel Jore

A lot of people have claimed that they know the real Nathadel and I am not claiming that I know her that much but I think I've seen enough. We became friends since forever.

People don't know that she had so many alter egos. I used to call her names depending on the type of personality that exists with in her. Some of which are CORY, POPS, SPIRITS and the Granny. Remember them NAT????

She was there for me even though I never told her that I needed her. She was like the sister that I never had. She never told me "I told You So" when I was wrong and she was there for me when my world was crushing down on me. When I was struggling with my life she was there. She's willing to put her life on hold just for me...



God bless you MADZ. I know you will pass the Board Exam like I do. Keep the faith and just Pray...

A Lesson Well Learned

Today I received a text message from a close friend.

Misunderstanding the Sweetness of a Person Might Hurt When You Thought It Was Love

This is his subtle way of reminding me that my insanity about a guy had gone too far. That I've pushed the limits and that all I've done is not worth it.

Thank you so much!

It's Official.. Im a Wedding Planner

LOL.. Just out of boredom.. I volunteered to plan for a friends wedding so hopefully tomorrow all goes smoothly...

Loving on the Rebound!!!!!!!!!!!

So here I am again. Loving someone, so easily, yeah right, but I can't help myself. He was there when I need someone to talk to. He was my shoulder to cry on. He understands why my tears are falling. He did the sweetest thing in the world. He heard the sound of my broken heart. (corny ra) He makes my world like a beautiful rhyme I just hope that he won't change track.


The Saddest part is he is straight and he doesn't know that I like him.

You could be mad at me all you want but I ain't coming back and not loving him.
I'm losing myself....

I think I need to go to rehab.......


I don't know.. I must be crazy..

Long Distance Relationship is CRAP

I used to think that when you fall in love with someone you'll never fall out of it. That when you feel that it's real, it would endure time and distance. That love will make me happy.

These past few weeks I've been away from the guy that I love and truly cared for. I thought the distance would be bridged and everything will be alright. Space had tested us so soon into this relationship. Things had changed between us. Maybe because I jumped into this relationship with my eyes closed and my heart on my hands. I took that risk without any reservations. Certainly some risks are not worth it.

You won't hear that "it's not you, it's me" line coz it was definitely him. I'm just so stupid not to figure it out. So sad that I ignored all the signs thinking that maybe it's just me and that I'm just paranoid. He's been acting strange and been so cold. I know that something was up.

Just don't go next to me and apologize, coz it's too late to do that. Baby I'm already out of the door. Thank you for ignoring me, coz that really helped me made up my mind. I know it's not gonna be easy but I'll get by.

CONCLUSION: Long Distance Relationships wont work.. I THINK....

SINGLE LADIES Fever to the Extreme

Mga bayot boang na way mabuhat


Imagine what people do for that shot of fame.... and I am entertained....

OATH TAKING CEREMONY

The Day I became a FULL PLEDGE NURSE. It was the most amazing feeling in world.

With Jermaine and Kreole...



With Mario, Eric, Jermaine, and Londres....

Cutie Baby

ATTENTION:GAP UNITED COLORS of BENETTON, you guys should take a look at this!

WHATCHU THINK???

It Ends Tonight

I don't know what to do right now.... I'm currently sorting things out. There's so many things I wanna know the answers to.

The chances I took for him had me on my knees, but you'll never see me beg. Go and die alone, I'm not coming with you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



I knew this is coming, I just never thought that it would be this soon.

IT was too much to handle... Thank GOD I had this blog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Now I realized that......



I'm not Cinderalla and he ain't PRINCE CHARMING, And This is not My Happy ENDING

Ouch!

I was bloghopping today and I bumped into my friend's blog. There's nobody in this world that could compare what he had been through. I admired his strength for throwing his pride towards the guy, but I found this conversation between them quite funny... I'm sorry C.

one morning....

me: good morning D, can i ask you a question?

no reply....

one day passed by....

two days....

that afternoon...

him: hi C! sori now lang ko ka reply. wats ur question diay? (hey c sorry, If I just replied to your message, what were u asking again?)

ignored him...

that night...

me: hi D! are you busy?

him: no. wats ur question diay?

me: hmmm what would you say if i told you i liked you? i really liked you?

him: salamat (thank you)

me: that's it?!

him: yep...salamat kaayu!(thank you so much)

me: uhh okay...so can we go out sometime?

him: pass lang ko ana C. (ill pass)

SYET! WA NAI MAS BUSTED PA ANI?!

Hangin Out With Friends at San Remegio

This is Caroline's Victory Bash....We had a blast...

Graduation!

It's that time of year again where people end a chapter in his life and start a new one....


Just Wanna Give a Big Shout out to my Hommies... You made me Proud and you made your mama Prouder

Words Better Off Unspoken But Done

After 5 minutes of soul searching, I came up with words that would mean a lot if it is unspoken but it should be showed. Things would be different and a lot better if we do this.


1. Love
2. Care
3. Concern
4. Humility(being humble)

These words would mean so much if we show it done just by verbalizing it.


After all, Actions speaks louder than words!!!!!

Remember that...

Earth Hour

Tonight I am Electing Earth Against Global Warming. By turning off your Lights tonight you can help the cause......

Boomerang!

Earlier this week, I tried my luck on being a love expert but clearly I didn't make any sense. My friend didn't follow my advise. I was shocked when I've seen them together with her gold digging "boyfriend". I can't believe that she took another dive in the pool even though she knew that the water is shallow. The worst part was she is now ignoring me. Me and my big mouth right? I felt so left out and alone.


But even though she no longer want's to be my friend, I have no regrets for everything that I told her. I prefer to tell the truth and hurt someone than to tell a lie and make them smile.

So there's no need for a word-war coz that will make everything so cheap!!!!!!!!!!!

Vintage Picture

Love or Money?

I have a friend who is really confused about a guy she is currently seeing. She asked me if the Guy was really into her or is he only dating her because of her money.

For one, the guy looked so awful, he was like a picture of someone with a scarlet fever and some scars for a face. He had the thickest nerve for making my friend pay up for everything that he needs. I'm tellin you he's a complete and utter "A".

I don't want to burst her bubble just like that, but I don't want her to live a life of lies. So I said Open your eyes and see reality because there are things that we couldn't see because our heart was blocking the view. Sometimes we couldn't view things clearly because we wanted to satisfy what our heart had always crave right from the start, we refuse to accept the fact that he was just lying and we hope that he was telling the truth.


And after all this when we're all sucked up and exhausted that's when we realize that things are not going right and regret sinks in...


There's no one to blame because there's always that part of ourselves that needs to love and be loved may it be for real love or just for money.

My Doggies

Vintage Picture

This Picture was taken after our Christmas Party when I was still in Kinder Garten. Boy I was still young and naive. I could still remember some of the names.

Top: Reggie Baylon, Jeff Brian Maglasang, Micheal Jabar, Me, Al Glen Dela Rama, Mark Ayuso, Kenneth Lubon, Lord Alexander Dela Rama, The Triplets: Faith, Hope, and Charity,

Sitting: Rolly Anthony Orongan, Jay Nathan Jore, Kenneth Sotto, IDK, Liza Penagunda

Being Young Wild and Free

A lot of People have been asking me why I'm like this. They often labeled me as immature. Well they were right. It's me, I made mistakes but I learn from them. I don't live by people's expectations. I don't have any regrets with the things that I did but I regret those things that I never did. I'm not saying that I'm a good role Model. My life is not perfect.


Live your life the way you want it to be. Celebrate being Young

Enjoy!

Confessions of a Compulsive Liar

I know that living in this world is not easy. How much more if you’re gay with all the insecurities a person could possibly have. Added by having a dysfunctional family, then went from having it all to almost having nothing at all. I've been through a lot in my life. Lot's of stuffs that nobody even cared to explain because I don't understand everything that's been happening around me. I was lost and confused. That's when I got into alcohol and messed up a lot in high school. I was having a hard time trying to fit in. I tried to hang out with all types of people, bad and good. I lied, I bluffed, I exaggerated things, and I made up stories so that I could feel that I belong if they think that I'm all that. It's a madness that I can't just turn off. An addiction more potent than heroine.

And all those stuffs are haunting me now. Things got out of control and I think that I am to Blame. The People that I truly cared for are now going away. I'm dying inside. I felt so empty and hollow. I realized this when a very close friend of mine started to ignore me. He was fed up by the lame excuses that I told him. I know that I'm not the same anymore. I know I had to change.

As I enter a new chapter in my life, I have to renovate my inner self. Start anew. I can't continue living like this.

I don't want you to forgive me so that I could come out clean. I just want you to understand and maybe in the long run, slowly you'll find it in your heart to accept me.

I just want you to know that, No matter what I'll always be here for you.

So This is Me...


I'm Jan Errol P. Duazo and I'm a Liar.

I made it

This is one of those post that you might find corny and unnecessary. Feel free to close this window, I won't mind.


Today I just received the ticket to a better tomorrow. I'm now a Registered Nurse. It's a bittersweet victory I must say. Knowing that some of my friends never made it. I couldn't just rejoice at the top of my lungs.

This is for the people who have helped me along the way.

To My Parents for their undying love and Support.
To our Dean and to the Faculty, You Taught us Well..
To Miss Daryl T. Aramil, Mr. Giovanni Verano, Miss Hanna B. Pilario and Miss Abegail Uy, Teching me what I refused to learn.
To Reinaflor "anday" Jusay for visiting me while I was on rehab.
To Ernest Roan "lil xylem" Dalag, for the late night txts when I can't sleep because of anxiety.
To Keisha Najarro, Roldan Conde, Wynonna Salazar for pushing me up when I was so down.
To My Rehab Roommates, Pinky, Gergen, Lorelyn, Cyril "maretes", and Jane "dayang", Rehab wont be the same without you. Those were memories that lasts a lifetime.
To the People who believed in me, Thank you.
To the People who never believed in me, Hey Look where I am Now.

Thanks!


CONGRATS! To all the CIT PASSERS

Pre Valentine Dramz

There was this guy from my hometown that I really love. I swear.. Way back in my elementary days to my High School years. I know that it’s not right, it’s not even normal, I think. So I suppressed it. I left the town right before My Senior Year in High School just to close the doors of the past. I still come back every once in a while for a day or two, so that there would be no chance of seeing him. And it has been Six years since then.

I thought I was over him, so I decided to go back and stayed longer than I used to. It’s been 3 weeks and we've been seeing each other, hangout, eat out together. I know that I was over him. Well I thought I knew. We've talked about things and catch up on each other. Everything went well.

Till one night when we went out together. He told me that his heart was breaking. He told me everything about this girl that I really know and how she broke his heart. He cried in front of me and sob til dawn. I've never seen a guy break out like that. He said that he still needs me when he stumble and fall like what we used to. I think that it's just okay coz we're friends. She is one lucky B*tch.

What surprised me more was my heart. I don't know what to call that feeling but it hurts. I don't want to see him cry or hurt. Even though I think that his problem is not worth my time but I just can't leave him behind like that.

Right now I'm lost. I don't know where to put myself.


I'm really confused.



Am I rekindling the old flame that I’ve tried to put off or It's just a friendly PITY that I'm Feeling.


Please Help Me..

Proper Jeepney Etiquette

Want to know how to behave right while commuting a jeepney? Well I've got some tips for you so to help you fit in and chill inside the country's national ride..


1. When inside the jeepney, please stop staring at your co-passengers. It is really rude. Just take a picture it will last longer.

2. Please stop flashing your fancy cellphones. We get it, you are one social climbing person who saved up a year of your salary just to buy that phone.

3. When you accidentally step on a fellow passenger's toes, please be considerate enough to apologize! It's a public transportation..everybody deserves respect!

4. If you are a girl with a long hair. Please tie it up so that the person beside won't be able to have a free taste of your long hair everytime the wind blows.

5. Please don't talk so loud, the one beside you is not deaf and people around you are not interested with what you are talking about.

6. Place your hands where everybody can see it because if they can't see it, they might think your doing something else. Like snatching (duh)

7. If you're a guy, please don't try to squeeze in especially if the girl beside you is hot, its really rude. Be careful you might get an uninvited boner. Lol

8. If you are on a relationship, please avoid doing some PDA. People don't want a public free show. Just get a room okay.

9. I really hate this behavior, there are people who wont reach for someone's fare. Please pass that fare or just ride a taxi.

10. Please pay up. A jeepney is not a carnival ride. No free ride please.

So that's it...

Ride and enjoy...

things i dont understand about my mom

1. why does she have to nag before giving me money. its really irritating to my ears every time she does that. and its a total waste of time because after all the nagging she's gonna give it anyway so why nag??

2. why do i have to ask permission everytime i go out. look im already 21 and im still not allowed to go out at night on saturdays.. look mom im the only 21 years old gay virgin these days.. and that sucks...this is why sneaking out existed and i love it... the fear of getting caught makes the partying all worth it..

3. Every time i confide a secret at her and uses it against me. like its not fair coz everytime i tell her something that she's not allowed to tell she'll use that to blackmail me... so mom watch out imma blackmail u too... in time

4. why am i not allowed to be late when she is always 30 minutes late everytime we see each other. this is really unfair because she hates it everytime i made her wait but when im late its another long nagging time...

5. All she does best is worrying. she worries all the time . every minute every day she checks up on me and asks if i have eaten or not. and tells me not to go home late.. blah blah blah.. aw that sucks right.


Look i don't really hate my mom... these are the things i actually love about her...


ttys
lorre

That Big IDK....

Just this morning I tried to apply for a job at the call center and I never Hesitated to go to the most prestigious call center here in Cebu.(Ambitious) Then As the interview started, the HR asked me a lot of questions and I think I answered them very well.

She asked me about myself, my strength and weaknesses, Which is very typical. As I was describing myself which took me a minute or so, she cut me off and asked me.


WHAT IS YOUR IDEA OF A CALL CENTER JOB?
and I said...


IDK...


Believe me I was so shocked too when Ive said that...
Their are words that are better off unsaid.. and I guess IDK is one of those words...
It took me hours to realize what I have said and to realize why I never get that job.
I don't know If I can still go through all that same anxiety of applying for a job again...



Well anyway.. Maybe Call Center Job is not for me...

My DAY

Just got a year older and it makes me wonder why we had to grow old when its our birthday. Wish it was Just a Happy day and not worry about being a year older...

OK I'm twenty something and I'm worried about what's gonna happen to my life now. Thinking about responsibilities and maturity scares the bones out of me...

My Birthday thoughts

1. I definitely need a love life. The one who would love me like I love him.
2. I need to start looking for a day job...
3. For some reasons I felt like I'm so Empty Inside, but don't try to fix me, I'm not broken.
4. Many People asked me why I spell b*tch like betch. Well Hello, Bisaya version kaya na.. and I'm not stupid. I also use that word not in an offensive or cursing kind of way and for me it means HOTTIE, or, awesome and so on...


So thats it...

TTYS
BYE

My NEW Year's Resolution

As a New Year Tradition, people makes a list of stuffs they want to accomplish for the rest of the year.. Well here's mine a brief and simple statement that says a lot about me...



MORE HAIR, LESS FAT.


and that's it...


Coz the crazy things I'll do to get that, might just surprise you...


TTYS

Bye